2009 RHOA: The Reunion Show pt. 1

I've been waiting all week for the Real Housewive's of Atlanta Reunion. Tonight's reunion was decent. There was no yelling and screaming this time around. However, there were some moments deserving of discussion.

First of all let me say that I send my deepest condolences to the family of Ashley "AJ" Jewell's family and friends. Kandi nearly broke my heart as she revisited the day of his passing. She seems to be staying strong and working through it. Good for her.

I'd like to also make note of some fabulous hair Nene was rocking today. That new haircut looked great on her! Good for her. I'm also happy that she kept her voice down this time around. Clap it up for her. And everyone on twitter seems to be loving Sheree's neck piece. It's pretty sick!

On to the good stuff!

I know all the

women of America just witnessed the foolery that is Kim Zolicak. Not only did she make a fool of herself by coming on national television bragging about her marriage engagement to an already married man but then she makes this big deal about her not "putting up with this" anymore with "Big Poppa." So, the show goes to commercial and when they return we learn that none other than "Big Poppa" himself just stopped by the studio and Kim and he engaged in some serious lip locking action. So much for that story she just told all of us that nobody believed in the first place. Her stories are never consistent and I believe more and more that she is the trash talker that everyone has made her out to be.

Kim and Nene also seemingly have made up since the end of the shows taping and the alleged throttling incident. They'll most likely be hating each other again in no time!

Nothing going on with Lisa is really worth talking about. *yawn*

I'm ready for part 2. Lets bring out Dwight and liven things up a bit!

Update

Wow,

I haven't written anything in a very long time.

Well, I've been going through so much lately. I smile on the outside but there's a war going on. A war that most people know nothing about. Its a constant battle against myself. I'm fighting against my desires. I'm fighting against my dreams. I'm fighting this war every single day.

Most days, I go to work and the first thing I think is, "Its all for a paycheck." I've been at this job of mine for a little over a year now. I hate it with everything that I am. There's nothing exciting or benefiting except the paycheck. I'm not happy when I'm there. Of course I smile and put my best foot forward regardless but I'm dying inside.

I had this long discussion with my parents and one of their friends about how much I hate my job and how I want to quit. I figure, I live at home (rent-free) and now would be the best time for me to just go ahead and go try new things while I don't have too many expenses. They saw my reasoning to be quite selfish. "Do you know how many people wish they had a job right now!? You complain that you do nothing when you go to work, I'd love to be paid to do nothing."

Okay, granted, the economy is n a really bad state right now and I'm really grateful to be employed. (Truly I am). However, I feel like my staying here is a huge hindrance. All its

doing is creating a gap in my resume in my opinion.

I'm not sure what to do. I'm waiting on a sign from the Lord because everything I've tried isn't working and only He can help me at this point. I really just don't know what to do or how to do. I just really want happiness. I seriously don't know how much more of this I can endure.

In happier news,

Shout out to my boy Jermaine. You guys may know him as J. Cole. I told you guys about him in a few posts back. Since then, he has been featured on Jay-z's Platinum selling album, "Blueprint III."

"Go figure. A slow transition from a lil' broke nigga from the 'Ville, got a deal..."

- J. Cole

I'm so proud of this guy. If you haven't heard it yet, download "The Warm Up." Its a really good listen.

I'd also like to give a huge congrats to my big sister, Nichelle, for two big things; Merging with

"Salon Blue," renowned bridal salon and spa, as well as becoming a hair stylist for the hit TV show, Project Runway!

Here she is pictured with last seasons Project Runway finalist, Kenley, at fashion week.

You go girl! Isn't she beautiful!?