BET's College Hill : South Beach

Drama from episode 1! How dope is that!?!

4 Guys and 4 Girls. Lets go down the list of people in the college hill camp this season. 

Allison: the bisexual, boondock-haired, laid back, chick.  Judging from her dialect, you can pretty much tell that she's not from the "hood."  When she opens her mouth, you can pretty much tell that she's got some white friends. I doubt she'll be the troublemaker of this season.

Brandon: the "I think I look really good" guy. In my opinion, I wouldn't give him a second glance but I guess I can see why some girls might find him attractive. He has a nice body though. 

Tiffany: Cute girl with a jacked up personality. She's quiet in person but in all of her confessional videos, she's talking the most junk. She thinks way too highly of herself and less of others which makes her unattractive to me (no homo). 

Chris: I like this guy. He's cool and pretty straightforward. He seems like he has an easy going personality and likes to enjoy himself and make the people around him feel comfortable as well.

Milan: DIVA? Hmmmm, not exactly but she definitely wants to be one! She's the girl who could probably tell you everything u need to know about MAC and Bobbi Brown products. Her face could be used as a product tester she's got so much of it on! She's a nice looking girl but seems to say things before she thinks about what she's saying. Could come off as a b*tch even if she doesn't intend to. Very high-maintenance.

Paul: The mulatto! Half white and half black (jamaican). He's also got a pair of gold grillz. lol. How cute! I think he has the capacity to be a pro s*** talker. 

Terri: Her bad weave isn't the only thing wrong with this girl. The most naive person I think I've ever seen on television. She definitely believes in love at first sight. How do u play the "wifey role" to a guy you met 24 hours ago and then get upset when he distances himself from you. She's definitely the leech of the group. And judging by the phone call to her mom, she's from the hood. Just so blatantly ghetto lol. Im going to need her to relax. I can see her getting extra emotional and lashing out and ultimately getting kicked off the show due to unruly behavior. 

Kyle: The token gay guy. He's more of a diva than Milan is. Even though he's a little "extra" in personality, he seems like he'd be the life of any party. He definitely doesn't take crap from anyone and made that VERY clear within the first few minutes of the show! 

Can confidence be taught?

This is just something that I've been thinking about as of late. Speaking personally, I've always been known by my peers, family, and friends as someone who was outspoken with a vibrant personality. If you met me at a social event, you might not think that I was shy-- I am. 

My shy side tends to come out when I'm faced with a situation that can be intimidating. I'll give you an example. 

My last semester of college, I started interning for Nick Jr. Magazine. During the interview process, I was cool, calm and collected. I just knew that I was perfect for the job. Angela, the interviewer and future supervisor, obviously thought so too because I booked the job. 

The interviewing process for my internship was easy for me because at the time, I didn't view Angela as an authoritative figure. I didn't have the job and she wasn't my "boss." It was kind of easy for me to just answer the questions and be on my way. That all changed the moment I got to my desk on the first day! 

When I'd actually started interning, that's when all the shyness kicked in. I wouldn't say that I wasn't confident that I could do the job and do it well, it was more like-- well damn, I don't know these people. What if they hate me? What if they think I suck? What if I mess up?

I let those things get to me and as a result, I held back a lot of the confidence and spunk that people tend to see in me outside of the work place.

I thought it was just a one time thing, but i noticed that it became a pattern when dealing with authoritative figures or people that I felt that I had to impress.

I often wonder if  I'll always be this way or can this kind of confidence be "taught?" At the end of the day, dimming my light will never allow me to truly shine. I've got to get over this hurdle one way or another even if I have to fake it until I make it. lol.